trash

I know it is unfair to complain, but this bugs me. And it is rare. There are few people who make me feel uncomfortable about being who I am. I'm somewhat of a border creature. That which falls between the cracks. Too smart, and not sophisticated enough. I'd not need this journal if I could fit in anywhere.

It is strange, but there's only one person who I feel really looks down on me for being who I am. I'm rather proud of being white trash, and for having pushed the envelope as far as I have. Strange because it was someone I do respect and one of the few people who seems to get what I'm doing and trying to accomplish. It just seems as if it is lacking because I don't have that sophistication. Makes me want to crawl back into a hole, trash that I am.

People wonder why others feel disenfranchised and not part of the system, and don't know their proper station in life. Well, it is learned by those who leave those subtle hints that you're not quite good enough, and you do things that make them feel uncomfortable.

Well, that's me. Sorry.